Category: breast cancer

  • By Grace Alone: The Power of Abiding

    By Grace Alone: The Power of Abiding

    My sister Sara had this By Grace Alone necklace, pictured above, and she also gifted me one. Grace is the power of God to do for us what we cannot do for ourselves.

    She wanted us both to remember that when life feels out of control, we shouldn’t try to control it. We should surrender it to God, who is in control.

    What I have found is that the harder I try to control a situation, the more anxiety and fear control me. But when I let go and let God control the outcomes, I feel His perfect peace.

    If grace is the foundation of our faith, then abiding is the way we live it out.

    When Jesus says in John 15:5, “…without Me you can do nothing,” He doesn’t leave us there in helplessness—He immediately invites us into something deeper: “Abide in Me, and I in you.” This is not a command rooted in pressure, but an invitation rooted in relationship.

    To abide means to remain, to stay, to dwell.

    It’s not a striving word—it’s a staying word.

    So often, we approach our walk with God like a performance. We try harder, do more, fix ourselves, prove our devotion. But abiding shifts the focus entirely. It calls us away from self-effort and into constant connection.

    Think about a branch on a vine. The branch doesn’t strain to produce fruit. It doesn’t wake up each day determined to be more fruitful. It simply stays connected. Everything it needs flows from the vine—nutrients, strength, life itself.

    Jesus is reminding us: You are the branch. I am the source.

    Abiding is choosing connection over control.

    It looks like:

    • Turning your thoughts back to God throughout the day
    • Sitting with His Word, not just to check a box, but to hear His voice
    • Praying honestly, not perfectly
    • Surrendering your worries instead of trying to manage everything on your own
    • Trusting Him in the in-between, not just in the breakthrough

    Abiding is less about a moment and more about a posture.

    It’s waking up aware that you need Him.
    It’s walking through your day dependent on Him.
    It’s ending your day resting in Him.

    And here’s the beautiful truth: abiding is where grace becomes tangible.

    When you abide, you begin to experience the very power of God working in you—doing what you could never do on your own. That patience you didn’t have? It grows. That peace that made no sense? It settles in. That strength when you felt weak? It shows up.

    Not because you manufactured it—but because you remained connected to the One who supplies it.

    Abiding also means trusting that God is at work even when you don’t feel it.

    A branch doesn’t see the inner workings of the vine, but growth is still happening. In the same way, there are seasons where God feels quiet, distant, or unseen. But abiding says, “I will stay anyway. I will trust that You are still moving, still shaping, still providing.”

    This is where many people struggle—not in starting with God, but in staying with Him.

    But abiding is not about perfection; it’s about returning.

    Every time your mind wanders—come back.
    Every time you feel distant—draw near again.
    Every time you try to take control—release it back to Him.

    Grace makes abiding possible, and abiding keeps us positioned to receive grace.

    So instead of asking, “What more do I need to do?”
    Maybe the better question is, “Where do I need to stay?”

    Stay connected.
    Stay surrendered.
    Stay aware of His presence.

    Because by grace alone, you are sustained—and through abiding, you experience it every single day.

    With love and joy,

    Laura

  • Catch and Release — Choose Joy Adventure

    Catch and Release — Choose Joy Adventure

    One of the things I love about my Choose Joy Adventure is that it reminds me life with God is not a straight path — it’s a journey. Sometimes it feels like a peaceful walk along the shore… and other times it feels like standing at the edge of the water, holding something I worked hard to catch, knowing God is asking me to release it.

    “Catch and release” is a phrase often used in fishing. There are places and times where, after you catch a fish, you are required to release it back into the water. The purpose is growth. The fish population grows stronger because not every catch is kept.

    Catch means to secure something.
    Release means to set it free.

    If I’m honest, releasing is hard — especially after I’ve worked so hard to catch something. Just like fishing, there are seasons of waiting in life. Seasons where I’ve stood still for a long time, watching, hoping, praying, waiting to feel that little nibble that tells me something is finally happening.

    Waiting for the moment I can set the hook.
    Waiting to reel in the big one.
    Waiting for the breakthrough I prayed for.

    And then… sometimes God asks me to let it go.

    I have had to release jobs I worked hard to achieve.
    Release long-time friendships because life has changed.
    Release goals because of health struggles.
    Release expectations because life didn’t turn out the way I thought it would.

    In those moments, it didn’t feel like an adventure.
    It felt like a loss.
    It felt like failure.
    It felt like I had done something wrong.

    But the more I walk this Choose Joy journey, the more I am learning something powerful:

    God is not trying to take from me —He is growing me.

    Psalm 55:22 (NIV) says,

    “Cast your cares on the Lord and He will sustain you;
    He will never let the righteous be shaken.”

    To cast means to release.

    Sometimes the most courageous step in the adventure is not holding tighter…it’s letting go.

    There are two things we can count on in life:
    God never changes, and life always will.

    Change is inevitable.
    Growth is intentional.
    ~ Glenda Cloud

    So the question becomes —
    Will I fight the change…or will I grow through it?

    On this Choose Joy Adventure, I am learning there is a difference between giving up and letting go.

    Giving up says,
    “I lost.”

    Letting go says,
    “God has something more.”

    Just like releasing the fish so it can grow, sometimes God asks me to release what I thought I needed… so He can grow something deeper in me.

    I am not defeated.
    I am being developed.

    I can look back and be thankful for the seasons where I caught something wonderful — the job, the friendship, the opportunity, the dream. Those were real gifts.

    But I am also learning to trust that when God asks me to release something, it is because the adventure is not over yet.

    Through the eyes of faith, I can say yes to the next step, even when I don’t understand it.

    2 Corinthians 5:17 (ESV) reminds us,

    “Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation.
    The old has passed away; behold, the new has come.”

    New seasons require open hands.

    And the greatest example of release is this —
    God released His Son for us.

    Because of Jesus, we have the freedom to release fear, doubt, disappointment, and regret.

    So if you find yourself holding something today that God is asking you to release…you are not failing.

    Because of Jesus, we can choose joy even when life changes.
    Because of Jesus, every ending can become the beginning of a new adventure.

    You are stepping deeper into the journey.

    My friend, in life’s adventures, you will be asked to trust the One who sees the whole river, not just the line in your hand.

    Catch.
    Release.
    Trust.
    Grow.
    Choose Joy.

    With love and joy,

    Laura

  • 🌿When Seasons Change

    🌿When Seasons Change

    Life is full of seasons. 🍁

    We walk through seasons of change just as the leaves change color and drift to the ground. There are seasons of laughter and seasons of loss. We experience beginnings and endings. Some we welcome, others catch us off guard. But one thing remains certain: seasons always change.

    And through every shift, we have a choice. We can cling tightly to what was, or we can trust God enough to let go.


    💛Season of Letting Go: A Lesson in Trust

    A few years ago, I began choosing one word each year to focus on. That particular year, God whispered a word I didn’t want to hear: Letting Go.

    For someone who likes to plan, help, fix, and control, letting go felt impossible. Yet God was inviting me into a deeper trust. I was called to release what I was never meant to hold so tightly.

    Letting go wasn’t about giving up. It was about opening my hands to what God had next.

    🌸 Letting go of fear“Do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God.” (Isaiah 41:10)
    🌸 Letting go of control — remembering that God is the Author of my story.
    🌸 Letting go of the past“If anyone is in Christ, they are a new creation.” (2 Corinthians 5:17)
    🌸 Letting go of my own strength“When I am weak, then I am strong.” (2 Corinthians 12:10)

    Each time we release what weighs us down, we make room for God to move.


    💔Season of Loss and Surrender

    I’ve walked through seasons of deep loss. These include miscarriages, divorce, and the death of my father and sister. I also experienced a battle with breast cancer. Each one left me breathless and broken. But each one also became a classroom where God taught me to trust Him more.

    It wasn’t easy. I had to learn that joy is not the absence of pain, but the presence of surrender.

    “Consider it pure joy whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance.” — James 1:2–4

    Through every trial, God was shaping me, strengthening me, and drawing me closer to Him.

    🌿 Seasons change — but God does not.

    “Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today, and forever.” — Hebrews 13:8


    🌼 Season of Identity and Purpose

    Some seasons aren’t about loss — they’re about rediscovery.

    For much of my life, I defined myself by my roles and accomplishments. These included my job, my family, my appearance, and my success. But when those things shifted, I faced an identity crisis.

    Then I learned this truth. I stopped striving to define myself by the world. I began to rest in who God says I am — loved, chosen, redeemed. Then peace returned.

    “Do not conform to the patterns of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.” — Romans 12:2

    When we stop fighting against the current of change, we find that God’s plan has been carrying us all along.


    🌸Season of the In-Between

    Life often feels like the “in-between” — that space between no longer and not yet. It’s uncomfortable, uncertain, and full of questions.

    But it’s also the place where faith grows deepest.

    “Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.” — Hebrews 11:1

    My sister Sara taught me that joy is not the denial of pain. It is the decision to trust God in it. Even in her suffering, she defined joy as:

    “The unwavering trust that God knows what He is doing and has blessed me with the opportunity to be a part of it. Not despite what is happening in my life, but because of it. When everything earthly feels heavy, He gives me an internal lightness that can’t be reached.”

    We can’t control the seasons, but we can choose how we walk through them — with or without Him.


    🌤 When Seasons Change

    What do you need to let go of in this season? Is it fear? Or is it control? Could it be the past, or your own strength?

    Whatever it is, remember this truth:
    When your seasons change, don’t cling to fear. Let go. Surrender. Choose joy.

    God’s presence is constant. His love is unchanging. His purposes are eternal.

    “For you have rescued me from death; you have kept my feet from slipping. So now I can walk in your presence, O God, in your life-giving light.” — Psalm 56:13

    The trees release their leaves. May we also release what we can’t keep. Let us trust the One who never lets go. 🍂


    💬 Reflect & Share

    ✨ What season are you in right now?
    ✨ What is God asking you to let go of?
    ✨ How can you choose joy in the in-between?

    Share your heart in the comments below — let’s encourage one another through every season. 💕

    With love and joy,

    Laura

  • A Long Way From Your Heart

    A Long Way From Your Heart

    It is January and the temperature this week has been in the upper fifties! When that happens in Iowa, you must take advantage of it. So, I went on a walk and was praising God.

    For some reason, I started thinking about something my dad use to say. Whenever we would get hurt, he would try to make us feel better by looking at our hurt and saying:

    You know what the good thing about this is, don’t you? It’s a long way from your heart.”

    Then he’d laugh while trying to get me to laugh and think about anything else but my hurt. As I’m sure many of you can relate, those dad sayings were frustrating at the time.

    Eventually, I understood his lesson behind the distraction. That no physical ailment could change my heart. That every hurt would pass and I would still be the same on the inside regardless of the outside.

    I’ve had opportunity to put that saying to the test in my adult life, and I’ve realized something about Dad’s theory…

    I realize that some hurts aren’t a long way from my heart. Some hurts reside there. But, they don’t have to change who I am inside.

    They don’t have to change my faith.

    Every lesson I learned before the hurt remains the same after.

    Nothing is different. God is the same. Love is the same.

    No matter how much my heart hurts.

    I get to choose my perspective. I get to choose between faith or fear; victory or victim; joy or despair; bitterness or hope. It is my choice and what I choose will decide the healing of my heart.

    Through the many hurts I have experienced, I have chosen to trust in Him. Trusting in Him, is an all or nothing decision. If I choose to trust Him, I can’t choose fear or bitterness. I can’t choose to be a victim or filled with despair.

    It’s an all or nothing decision.

    Going through divorce, cancer, and loss, didn’t change my choice to trust in Him. I know better, so I can’t pretend to be ignorant simply because my life was suddenly altered.

    Even in the hardest times, I trust that God has never changed. His grace surrounds me every moment of every day. He knows all, sees all, and understands all. I trust Him with everything. I can walk through this life aiming to fulfill what I realize I may never understand.

    This life may seem random to me, but it is not random to Him. And that is enough for me.

    It’s in Christ that we find out who we are and what we are living for. Long before we first heard of Christ and got our hopes up, he had his eye on us, had designs on us for glorious living, part of the overall purpose he is working out in everything and everyone. ~Ephesians 1:11 MSG

    I pray you know that you can make the choice for it to be enough for you too.

    With love and joy,

    Laura

  • Hiding Sonshine

    Hiding Sonshine

    My my son Thomas, now 31, was maybe seven at the time. His partner-in-crime and cousin, Alex, was about eight. And the third amigo? He was in his 50’s. And their grandpa.

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    Dad, Thomas and Alex

    It was Memorial Day weekend. We were all at a cemetery next to the small country church my mom attended as a child. We were placing flowers next to the headstones of loved ones who had gone to heaven before us. As with every year, we walked around the cemetery. We tried to remember who was related to whom. We also tried to recall how they were related to us.

    And off in the back corner huddled Dad with his two oldest grandsons. We could tell by the way Dad was standing. His hand gestures showed he was telling a big story. Believe me, those boys were paying close attention.

    Before too long, Thomas came running over to me, declaring, “Mom! You aren’t going to believe it! Grandpa used to hide sunshine in these stones!”

    We’d all heard the stories before. It didn’t take long to realize Grandpa had been telling inappropriate stories of his own youth. Stories to the youth whose ears were too young to be listening (according to me anyway).

    The intricate tale Dad wove was of long ago. It was a time when alcohol was outlawed. People made their own brews in bathtubs and bottled up liquor on the sly. He spoke of secret stashes and horse riding. He included anything else he could to make his true story a little more lively.

    Dad explained to these impressionable little lads that some of the headstones were hollow inside. He showed them the panels on the sides. These panels could be unscrewed. He told them about the times they would sneak into the graveyards. They hid their stashes of tub-brewed liquor inside the headstones of people who had long since left the earth.

    He told them of moonshine.

    Thomas told us of sunshine.

    And none of us corrected him as we all scolded Dad and knew it would do no good.

    My thoughts today are not of hiding the moonshine, but of hiding the “Sonshine.”

    In January of 2017, my journey with breast cancer began. I don’t talk about the journey much, and I’m not sure why. I’m not good sharing about me as I really don’t like attention. The memories are definitely hard, but by not sharing, I am hiding the “Sonshine.”

    By not sharing, I am hiding the opportunity to show you joy. The blessings that also comes from the difficulty. I am hiding the opportunity to disciple and share God’s goodness. Even in the most difficult times, He is good, all the time! He is the “Sonshine.”

    By not sharing, I am not providing the opportunity to let you know that I am here to listen. I can pray, comfort, or be whoever you need, for whatever you may be going through. Mine happened to be cancer. Whatever yours is, I would like to share the hope and joy that is still possible, even when life hurts.

    During the most difficult times in life, we may not always recognize the blessings. Burdens can make these blessings hard to see. It reminds me of the poem footprints.

    FOOTPRINTS

    One night I dreamed a dream.
    As I was walking along the beach with my Lord.
    Across the dark sky flashed scenes from my life.
    For each scene, I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand,
    One belonging to me and one to my Lord.

    After the last scene of my life flashed before me,
    I looked back at the footprints in the sand.
    I noticed that at many times along the path of my life,
    especially at the very lowest and saddest times,
    there was only one set of footprints.

    This really troubled me, so I asked the Lord about it.
    “Lord, you said once I decided to follow you,
    You’d walk with me all the way.
    But I noticed that during the saddest and most troublesome times of my life, there was only one set of footprints.
    I don’t understand why, when I needed You the most, You would leave me.”

    He whispered, “My precious child, I love you and will never leave you. Never, ever, during your trials and testings.
    When you saw only one set of footprints,
    It was then that I carried you.”

    During the hardest times in life, we must be intentional. Intentional in focusing on our blessings in the midst of the burden. We must be intentional because the blessings are often overshadowed by the burden.

    In 2017 it would’ve been easy to let the world pass me by. I thought that if everything was going to be taken from me, I might as well act like it.

    But my true intention in life is to be open to whatever God has in store for me. My biggest fear is that He has a purpose for me and if I’m not paying attention, I’ll miss it.

    So I pray for guidance and pray that I can be intentional in all things. Through my breast cancer journey, God has showed me an important role. I can fulfill the role of an encourager. I believe in people when they don’t believe in themselves. I believe in God’s plan when others lose their faith. I encourage and, hopefully, leave someone feeling better than when I found them.

    So, I pray that as you join me on this Choose Joy Adventure, you will be encouraged. Encouraged to seek out God in the blessings and the burdens. Trust Him even when He feels far away. Believe that He is not far away, but carrying you through it.

    The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. ~Deuteronomy 31:8 (NIV)

    I pray the tales that we hushed dad from telling back then get told years down the road. That they will tell their own grandkids about their Grandpa Mike. How he weaved them stories of moonshine and filled their spirits with “Sonshine.”

    I’ll spread “Sonshine” to each of you. I will do this through stories of what I have gone through. These stories show how my relationship with God has deepened. This deepening happens when we choose to open ourselves up to Him and each other.

    With love and joy,

    Laura